From Hotel Bel-Air to the Holiday Inn
You really can take me anywhere..
not to say you should - by any means. No, I will not come to your Holiday Inn.. However, on a road trip immediately after one of the most magical getaways, I found myself driving my girlfriend and I up the highways to NorCal with camping gear in the back seat.. simply dripping in a whirlwind of adoration, and elation.. perhaps even a little mystery - seeing that I had just experienced magic and wasn't sure what would happen next. Oh, the Unknown. So, it's 2 am and I've been driving all night
still reeling from the evening of decadence before..
and here I am at a Holiday Inn, simply desiring a bed and a hot shower before I head out to a camping retreat with no cell phone service for the weekend.
What a life! What a dreamy, lifetime movie award winning, womanly world I get the gift of breathing into. Yum. So, some time has passed since this incredible trip
spaciousness has gifted me longer and more luxurious moments to slide into what my poem from this particular evening would consist of.
For a moment, I thought I lost my poetic groove
that's preposterous though - I simply needed time to align my heart
mind, body, and soul
On this particularly misty evening in LA
Seriously it's like being in a fairytale out there
I decided to gift myself a full night of ritual and ceremony.
It is the New Moon, anyways,
and if you haven't experienced a New Moon with me -
well, we best make a date immediately. The new moon is the perfect time to set strong and powerful goals for the future, seeing that the whole of nature is in support of whatever you intend with genuine conviction and devotion. It's a magical time of the month between the new moon and the full moon you will see great strides of successful accomplishment on whatever you've set your heart and mind to. I digress,
on this particular new moon I went to a delicious kundalini yoga class
made an amazing new girlfriend (aren't I always though?!) and got to reconnect with some of my favorite old friends. I love yoga classes for the community..
So I go to this class
purse filled with a Tupperware of rose petals
sheepskin thrown over my shoulder like a satchel
Ready to celebrate Diwali (Hindu festival for the Goddess of abundance and wealth - Lakshmi)
and a celebration it is. After class I was so enthusiastic about my life and my energy was vibrating so high
I knew it was my moment
off to the beach I rode, heart open and smile on my face
fingers a bit cold from the mist
yet not a care in the world
my heart had a mission of putting said flower petals into the ocean for the Mother Goddess Lakshmi
so I did.
and it was brilliant. I could feel the energy of this mother goddess reminding me that I am exactly where I need to be - in service and devotion as the feminine. It was so surreal. Misty, Magical, Quiet. Finally, inspiration struck once more as the words of this particular poem flew through me.
For those of you new here.. by spending time with me, the artist, you get to experience my poetic musings and artistry and it's all about.. us. It's about how you inspire me and how I inspire you
and that's moving.
That's life as art. That's the point. Pleasure, playfulness, creativity, beauty. Goodness where would we be in the world without the touch of beautiful art? I'd rather not even think about it.
So I won't. I'll instead share this poem.. which is always better read to you
tucked in crisp hotel sheets
tea in hand
hair draped messily after moments of passion
For now though.. this poem will do.
I hope you find my cadence and can hear my sultry, honey voice
blessing your ears with the vision of this particularly special evening.
Special because it was one of my greatest wishes I had never even told anyone - a night playing Audrey Hepburn at the Hotel Bel-Air.. My goddess it was so good I absolutely.. well.. we absolutely - yes, you and I, or me and you -
must absolutely do this.. New moments, new memories, new energies. I was honestly a bit.. stretch this particular trip. I was preparing for the camping trip and managing some things within my family that were weighing on my heart. I didn't feel 100% and yet was still treated like a Goddess. It felt so good to be allowed to be human, rather than idealized as a provider. Providers have real lives too.. although they are quite glamorous and surely glittered with so much joy and magic.. we feel and especially us conscious, more spiritual types.. we have our hands in many pots, in the heartfelt prayer that we can create even more change and positivity in a world that desperately needs it. It was both a relief to be met in my fullest human expression (Amaya, Audrey..well, all parts of me! haha) and to know that is truly medicine. It has my inspired and dreaming into what sort of experiences I'll offer next..
Let me tell you, ladies and gents,
There's a new mantra in town - rather than "It's too good to be true.."
What if we all tried on,
"It's so good, it's true."
Life is always happening for you.
So sit back into your chair
(thank you for reading all the way to here)
take a deep breath and relax your jaw as you exhale audibly
and enjoy this journey with me.
There’s playfulness in the poetry of our soul’s wild story
Coming together with you
Was a long time coming
Only you will know what I mean.
Anticipation is an all natural drug
I've learned to love..
Those butterflies and shots of electricity
the sense of something special brewing..
something so holy
capable of ravishing you
through and through
There was a particular sweetness to this though
timid and tender
like two adolescents crushing hard on each other
Wondering if it's ok to kiss..
Meeting you was a reminder of why I’ve lived so wild and free
A life of adventure finally brought you to me
Alas, your hearts a bit torn and tattered
Life felt smashed
Warrior King's need their needs met too
And meeting your needs comes very naturally for this muse.
Bio hacking super babes on a mission to make grandiose moves
For the liberation of all who
Dare to seek and find
Who dare to toe the line of what it means to be
Will you slow down time and get lost with me?
Eye Gaze into each other's souls
then come back to stretch into our bodies?
Sheepskin rugs and ecstasy
Mind cracked open
And heart beating so rapidly
Yes, you can ravish me. I surrender to this wisdom of your
incredible conscious reality
Smoke a little Mary Jane
You’ve got my whole soul giggling
Swirling moments of divinity
Did you read my mind?
Or are you really just another mirror of me,
looking into the light of the divine?
Soul mate moments of levity
Swan filled ponds decorated with influential poetry
Dancing with flutes
Dare we say..
Prayers are answered when we send them out
On the wings of birds
And the breath of life
The air lifts up our desires and connects us so we might
The medicine of each other’s authenticity
You play Mel
but I’ll always be Audrey
Walk slowly with me
Lift your crown
You're a King.
Extend tall like
The giving tree
That’s what you are to me
and honestly so many..
a Mighty Giving Tree
Protector and Provider
Teach me those moves again? The ones where I can safely
disarm any harm
that might ever try to
ruin my plan
or suffocate my high
Ji Jitsu and jamming
Free Flow dancing
all eyes on we.
You reminded me
That my life's journey has been one of great adventure
and liberating love stories
You reminded me that I have purpose
in simply being
in my pure femininity
Surrender and serendipity.
Our time together gifted me
a breath to start back up my ancient modalities
New regimes and medicines
Flowing through me
Songs of healing flowing out of me
New gifts to be given
Hearts even more wildly free
Even I came home to me
after getting to celebrate you
coming back up from the
dark night of the soul's
Our time together was everything It needed to be
I hope you'd agree.. ;)
My prayer is that you too
Choose to write a powerful new story
And make it one full of your
And leave a little room in that story..
Creature filled moments of wrestling
Before the sun can even kiss the window pane for breakfast
Luxuriate with me
Gosh, I wish we had another day
Hotel bel air off I was to stay
At a Holiday Inn
Down the way
To go camping and immerse myself in spiritual play
A girl's gotta play in order to keep shining.
And that’s what I call full integration
Night to day
Day to night
How is it possible my life
Could be such a grand adventure?
A gift from the goddess
in order to give others permission
to truly live.
Full experiential humans
That’s the type I keep by my side.
Magnetizing the ones who seek light
And live light
Who go to great heights
So they can end their lives
Knowing they did right
In their own eyes
Life is a wave of ups and downs
But once you learn to ride
It’s all bliss
Even the challenging chapters
Because they allow new souls to come in
sacred souls who meet us
in truly precious
vulnerable and authentic
Thank you for that gift
Thank you for being brave enough to allow it
Thank me for being brave enough to allow it
feelings of gratitude
Tears of sweetness
Space for presence
Bodies for sensation
energy bodies elated
moments feeling anxious
exploration with another
just like life was intended of.
In the mirror of these eyes I see
someone who has the devotion
and honest yearning
whatever and wherever
He can find it...
So keep finding it
and living for it.
Trusting your bold intuition.
How could one ever negate the fact that fate awaits
To change the way
Your soul relates
To life and others
When you allow another to change you
And bring you home
To that internal
Made of gold
guiding you back to your North Star
through both the known and unknown.
Golden moments of laughter
Dreams made reality
One door closes
You always get what you pray for
So keep your eyes and heart open
To let soulmates in
Know that your life
will always be better for it.
authenticity and vulnerability
will always be the best medicine
you just have to let it in..
Audrey Monroe Muse
My favorite place on Earth.. Well, one of them, at least.